Again

sad-girl

“You take everything to heart,” she said

I try SO hard to be hard.

Again and again I fail

Again I try not to be affected when I see a homeless man with the sad and gentle blue eyes wearing no soaks on a rainy day, seeking shelter in a meeting..

Again I fail

Again and again I trying to shut my heart down and stop the tears…

Again I fail

Again and again they tell me, “Grow thicker skin.”

Again I fail

My sister tells me to block them out..

Again I fail

My mother says, ignore them..

Again I fail

“Shut your feelings down, just worry about yourself, fuck everyone else.”

Again I fail

“Stop caring so much what people think of you.”

Again I fail

“Stop being SO sensitive.”

Again I fail

“Stop being so nice… you are just too nice.”

Again I fail

“You want to die again..why?”

Again I fail

“Why do you care so much?”

Again I fail

“Fuck other people and just make your own way in life.”

Again I fail

“What did you do now?” My dad says..

Again I fail.

“I can’t handle you.”

Again I fail

“You care TOO much.”

Again I fail

 

 

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